Ok everyone, need your help I have a pic here of a bunch of letters, each letter is a name brand logo and most of them have been figured out but there are a few that have been difficult and driving me nuts...well more nuts than usual lol.  I need to know what D, H, N, T or X are. I have a good idea that T is Tide and X is Xtra detergent but I'm not positive. If anyone can figure these out I'll love you long time and owe you a hand and foot massage... ^_^

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY tsuki_saera!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY infi_chan !!!!!!!!!!!

Here are my 5 things from infi_chan 

Turselfurkey - oh the language of seffle fun times of making stories while talking like this, and play 1000 blank white cards (strange card game of doom) and making Jon tell us a story while only talking in seffle, and the turselfurkey was fuzzle wuzzle BAAAAD!.....Don't ask, unless you were at that pyps weekend you will not understand my elaboration at all

Puma - apparently one of my massage techniques reminds zip of a puma walking on her back....?¿? she's on special drugs that she then shared with infi because once infi heard this that technique officially became the puma

Bunny - I'm thinking you mean Fluffernuffle here....my stuffed rabbit with rabbit slippers (she is not a cannibal!!!!) I have slept with fluffernuffle since I was 8 years old at easter when my mom bought her from Bi-way for me....yup you heard me, Bi-way....holy crap I just dated myself a lil there. At pyps weekends Sai tends to carry Luka her scorpion around on her head wherever she goes and I tend to carry fluffernuffle only when very tired or when I think luka needs a friend

Rice - a staple in my diet....for several years it was damn near all I ate. some of my friends believe I have a special talent for cooking rice and making it nom nom nommy

Psycho (to all outsiders, not as bad as it could sound) - now this one to outsiders will of course sound like she's calling me a psycho and while many of you know that to be true I know that it's not what she meant. One of the first times I ever hung out with Rachel was after I'd become good friends with Sai and sai brought me to her youth group for a pizza scavenger hunt...you get into a group decide on a group name and then get a pizza crust and you have to go to different pizza places and ask them to donate one topping, only one per place and then the last place ask them to cook it. There were also other things you had to take pictures of for the scavenger hunt like "fit your whole group into a phone booth and get a pic" hehehe. Anyway back to the psycho part of this...crazy ppl that we three nuts were decided on the group name The Psycho Sisterhood. Mindy was later initiated into our lil club cuz she belonged in the sisterhood with us, being a psycho herself and all :D Aside from infi, sai and I being in the dutch mafia we are also the psycho sisterhood and forever shall be...I even made us a sign once ^_^

it happened...we both wondered how long it would take, both shed too many tears and sorries to count the past is the past and now it's time to move forward and reclaim that which was once ours...will it be the same, can it be the same? I hope so, better even. I've missed my best friend for so long now through all that's happened these past 6 months and now I don't have to miss her any more.

zip and I finally spoke for the first time since she moved back to peterborough. we talked for like 3 hours and caught up on each others lives...
infi_chan was right, smart girl. She said to wait, to let each other breathe....we're having lunch today, I'm so excited and scared all at the same time. Still kinda teary-eyed, don't know if I can sleep though, kinda wired now.

dear god please let us get back what we lost for so long...

Same deal as last one (zips thoughts on me)

Cleavage Rats - suki and yue how i miss the pretzel stealing rats who were addicted to sitting in my bra. yue was my fave cuz she was calm and sweet and loving and would just curl up in my hair or in my bra and fall asleep...I don't miss the tiny lil scratches all over my cleavage but i do miss the snuggles

Kraft Dinner - we're so weird....zip like her craft dinner double the cheese and i like mine with no cheese so we would each have a box to eat and i would give her my cheese or she'd have two boxes use only noodles from one and leave the leftover noodles for me in containers for later....fun fact - I still have zip noodles in my cupboard cuz she left me with so many..lol

Disney Music - oh god the singing and the drunk and the not sober....god i miss that!!! Zip and I would sing mulan songs or beauty and the beast...or lion king...and just belt it out nice and loud, sober or intoximicated and it always seemed to put a smile on our faces.

Roses - blue ones, my favourite, I happen to voice this quite a bit to a lot of people, it allows me to know if guys are listening, like my love and darling Adam who treats me so wonderfully. I use a blue rose as my avatar, have multiple pics of blue roses and one day Adam will actually find a store that has them when he wants to get one lol...not like I'm suffering since I keep getting orchids (2nd fave) so I'm not gonna complain

Vampires - black dagger brotherhood is probably a large part of this, I got her addicted to it and am also addicted and squee about it whenever i can. there's also LARP and the million and ten other vampire novels she's had to hear about. I'd be one if I could...they never get sick

Comment to this post and I will give you 5 subjects/things I associate you with. Then post this in your LJ and elaborate on the subjects given.


PYPS - the best moments of my life by far. The most happiness I have ever known, I would not be who I am without it and the friends I discovered there. Camping, billeting, games, energizers, worship, getting up at dawn to freeze and watch the sun come up with people who love me no matter what happens, people who are always there for me. Pyps is the only place where I've felt welcome, unjudged and accepted.


Dutch Mafia - Ah, all us wonderful dutch kids running around pyps...of course we became the mafia, with Alex as our leader, lol. Each pyps weekend we found more and more to join our crew, it started out with a few of us, alex, sarah, rachel, sunny, me... Our little mafia is like a second family lol.

Blue - this one I'm not sure how to take, it could mean so many things. My blue eyes, my blue clothes, my love of blue roses like the one I use as my avatar. Other than that I can only think sad, depressed, I hope that's not the context I'm remembered in though it's certainly been an issue in my life. I would like to think that blue refers to my love of the colour and all my blue shirts.

Change - I'm not really sure what this one means to me, I've always been afraid of change but I'm so glad I allowed some changes into my life, some have brought me pypsers, my bf, my new home in Napanee. I don't know that I myself have changed all that much over the years, essentially I'm the same person I've been for the past 4 or 5 years. Prior to pyps is another tale but after my first weekend I'd like to think I've pretty much held true to myself.

ok so this is gonna be a really quick post cuz I gotta run to my stupid job in like 3 minutes but hey....

so aside from worrying a lot about zip and wishing I could go see her and hug her things are going good for me.

I got a new job, I know MCCI isn't what most people would call a great job but it's full time and it's fairly straightforward and simple and I'm excited to be able to finally quit working at the gas station, this whole only ever working weekends thing was driving me nuts, I didn't know what to do with myself during the week since I was pretty much always broke and the weekends were torture that caused me to hate tourists and ppl with credit cards and to really like americans...how twisted is that....like seriously...

I got to see matt for two whole days and nights which makes me happy cuz I missed him so much I love that man way more than even he realizes.

I got to go to medieval times with my family last night and garth proposed to shannon in front of a huge crowd, totally awesome I will give better details later

and well in general life's not too shabby...ah hell gotta run gonna be late for work


I will post more later

Please have some consideration for your fellow human beings, people who work at gas stations are not your servants, they are not your slaves, they do not I repeat DO NOT get paid enough to be at your bloody beck and call. Please consider how you would feel after pumping gas for four different people and there's still a line of 5 or 6 more to come and 3 out of four of those people handed you a credit card and expected you to run back and forth between the store and all of the vehicles while they sit and wait like a snob in their fucking vehicle while everyone else in the line for gas also waits because they don't a) have enough consideration for others who want gas to pull ahead and b) don't have enough consideration for the poor gas attendant who is not only getting sunburnt running back and forth at their whim but is also blistering and bleeding from the feet from having to do this for 8 hours straight without a break to use the washroom, have a smoke, have a snack or eat absolutely anything.

So from now on those of you who have credit cards and go to full serve stations please remember this, and think about how you would feel if this were you.

I am only human and if there is only you and no one else to serve fine I don't mind running in and running back out for you to sign the fucking little piece of paper but when there's been a steady stream of people since my shift started and I'm the only one there I begin to hate all people who have credit cards, it makes them pompous and lazy and just plain fucking annoying, more than half of them don't even say thank you for the fact that they get to sit on their as while I attempt to do my job and they don't even have the courtesy to move their fucking vehicle for others to pull ahead so when they actually do move the people who pull up are now rude and annoyed because you took so fucking long to get out of the goddamned way and somehow that's my fault that you're an idiot.

I know most of you that read this journal either don't drive or don't have credit cards but to those of you who do please remember that you like me, and that you wouldn't want to torture me so why do it to some other poor bastard who has the same job. 

Thanks, a very irate Crystal

If you haven't read the post just below about the dangers of smoking go ahead and have a laugh at my expense...

If you have you're probably wondering what else is going on in my life other than my trying to end it by burning and trying to crash the car.

Matt moved home to his moms but we're still very much together and I still love him more than anything, it's simply better for him to be able to help out his mom, he's handy with housework and guy stuff that needs to be done like fixing things. He moved this past weekend and we're ok, I miss sleeping next to him but we're still gonna see each other a lot so it's all fine.

I'm going wedding dress shopping with Allyce tomorrow....I'm so very happy she chose to ask me to help her with this, it makes me feel very loved, we're gonna spend the day in Oshawa and go looking for a dress to match her AWESOME ring.

Zippy was up last weekend which was awesome, I missed her so much and I love hanging with her, she always makes me smile.

Sami is coming this weekend and hopefully we're gonna go see harry potter!!!! YAY!!!!! and Matt managed to get Sat. off so he can spend Friday night with us which rocks my socks. Mom might even take my Sat. shift so I can spend more time with Sami and Chris. Matt finally gets to meet Chris which is cool.

anyways....my bday is the 17th....I know I'm only turning 21 but yet I feel kinda old...anyhow that's all there is to say for now....

ok so it kills you and gives you cancer and heart disease and it's a filthy habit, bad for your teeth and breath etc.....but the hidden dangers of smoking I learned very well today....I was driving with my mom after going to see matt and going to chapters for lovely books and going to red lobster with my mom for my birthday which is next tues. and then on the way home my mom was smoking as per usual and she hands me her smoke to have the last drag so I take a puff and toss it out the window.....

This is where things go bad, on occasion in my life I've had smokes come back in the window it's always a shock and usually you burn your fingers a little bit and you pull over and get it out of the car and you're fine overall.....this is not what happened....the smoke did not come back in....however the CHERRY did....for those of you who don't know the cherry is the red hot end of the cigarette.....and I mean HOT! not only did the cherry come back in the window it landed down my shirt right in my breasts....I now have four cigarette sized burns through my skin on my cleavage which I've covered and patched but hurt like a bitch....so this is my tale and may all of you heed my warning and if you don't smoke never start....lol I have to laugh or else I may cry it's too pathetic, that is all for now.

Edit....one thing I forgot to mention was that I was driving and my reaction to burning in my breasts is not very pleasant and lets just say I could have died had mom not been with me to grab the wheel  when I started flailing and clawing down my shirt to remove the pain and yell PULL OVER!!!!!

stolen from rachelthedemon
Well now I know what I am should I decide to go for girls only....lol

I'm Velma, which ambiguous dyke are you? Quiz by Turi.

Ok so I've had an awesome wonderful day hanging with Zip....god I love that girl. We went to Red lobster, had snow crab and king crab instead of our usual meals and then we went to anamalia so zippy could ask how best to transfer her tank over to kingston, then we went and checked out Spa Euphoria and booked lovely wonderful appt's for waxing legs and areas slightly more private so we spent the next hour over at chapters playing with lovely fun books and reading and spending more money :D after that was the spa which was totally awesomeness, I love waxing, I want to have it done all the time now.

After the fun at the spa we went to her place and hung out then had nice dinner and then I gave her a salt glow which is always fun because zip is so cute and had never had a salt glow before, I love doing treatments on that girl....she's now as soft as a baby's butt and very happy because I've now taught her how to do this usually $60-80 treatment so that she can do it for people close to her such as the wonderful Racheldear that I have heard so many wonderful things about.

Matt is off at a staff party drinking and having fun which is good cuz he needs time with the guys and time to get out, I love it when he gets the chance to have some fun. I also love the fact that I don't worry at all when he's out and about because I trust him more than I ever trusted Ken the goldfish boy.

Exams are over so I'm exstatic about that, I'm finally on break, I can finally relax and I passed everything, thank god for the summer time and vacations.

Mom had her bladder operation yesterday and is doing great except that she's not supposed to be smoking so soon after surgery and she's doing it anyway or being very cranky when someone takes her smokes away from her aka me....she told me to fuck off.....very shocking for my mummy to say that word. She was very bitter and violent about it but hey it happens....


anyways, I'm off now because I'm hogging the zippy's computer at the moment....

stolen from demon_jester

Fill this out about me!!! **BUT FIRST** REPOST a blank copy to all of your
friends (including me) so they can fill it out about you!
BE HONEST! love me

What would you do if...
1. I committed suicide:
2. I said I loved you:
3. I kissed you:
4. I lived next door to you:
5. I started smoking:
6. I stole something:
7. I was hospitalized:
8. I ran away from home:
9. I got into a fight and you weren't there:

What do you think about my...
10. Personality:
11. Eyes:
12. Face:
13. Clothes:
14. Self:
15. Other:
16. Who are you?
17. Are we friends?
18. When and how did we meet?
19. What do you think of me?
20. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
21. How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
22. Do you love me?
23. Have I ever hurt you?
24. Would you hug me?
25. Would you kiss me?
26. Would you do me?
27. Are we close?
28. Have you ever hurt me?
29. On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
30. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. .
31. Am I loveable?
32. How long have you known me?
33. Describe me in one word.
34. What was your first impression?
35. Do you still think that way about me now?
36. What do you think my weakness is?
37. Have you ever been mad at me?
38. What about me makes you happy?
39. What about me makes you sad?
40. What reminds you of me?
41. What's something you would change about me?
42. How well do you know me?
43. Have you ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
44. What when you hear it, reminds you of me?

stolen from the lady_zip

Ok so I know one month isn't all that long and it shouldn't be a big deal but to me it is, because it's the longest stretch of happiness in about a year and a half. Matt makes me smile all the time. There's still that stupid part of my brain that is terrified he'll hurt me, break my heart and make me cry but my heart keeps telling it to shut up. What's great is how understanding he's been. Anyhow....I'll go on and on cutely later.....gotta go run and work on a group presentation now.